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The Old Me That I Used to Be
Written by Logan Cubano
Man
Woman
I don’t know what I am
He
She
Describes not them but me
Cry
Sigh
I wish I didn’t feel this way all the time
Lisi
That will always be a piece of me
I cringe every time I hear that name
But day after day it is always the same
But today is the day
Hopefully that you will change your way
Most days I can’t even stand being me
Because deep inside my new name is who I am meant to be
Get out get out
You don’t know what it’s like until people shout
I am always the one hurt
But in my heart I feel burnt
My family doesn’t accept me
They don’t want to see the real me
Instead they pretend to let it be
I’m not valid. I’m just pretending.
But in my opinion it’s all just depending
This is not how it should be
Instead They want me to lie to me
It’s like they put me in the oven to bake.
But instead they got, a deprived and miserable cake.
Or maybe shattering glass
Or trash they pass and pass
Instead of appreciating the good things I feel shame
Especially since you won’t call me by my real name